Currently Listening Kerosene By Miranda Lambert see related

So I bet you thought I was dead right? Wrong!! I'm still alive and kickin! So... I go to UNF now, so much fun! I love it here. I've been up here for a little over a year and I wouldn't change where I am for the world! I am in the best sorority ever (if you didn't notice I'm a DeeGee! ) and seriously, I am the happiest I have ever been!

John and I are broken up. It just got too much for me. We'll end up getting back together, I'm sure of that. I just need a break from him. Sometime it's just too much pressure to be in such a serious relationship with someone so far away. I love him though, don't get me wrong!

Oh, I found out that I have cancer, how bout them apples? It's only cervical cancer so I will be ok, it's just really nerve wracking! I'm having the time of my life right now, my life is soooo amazing!

Love ya'll!

Jamie

Got a new tattoo... It's the Chinese symbol for dream, it's on my hip. I know, I should be more original but I can't help it. I love to dream and it feels like my dreams are the only place where I can really be myself so I couldn't resist the tattoo!

It's spring break... I'm going to see John on Wednesday. I love him so much, he's my world, he's my everything. I think we're gonna get married in late 2007 or early 2008. Plan on being at the wedding everyone!

My best friend Laura moved back to Florida. I missed her a lot but now that she's living with my parents, I'm getting kind of jealous. All she does is talk about how much fun her and my mom have and I can't help but think that my mom is replacing me with her. I know it's not true and I know that I shouldn't be jealous, but I can't help it!

Anyway, I think that's all for now! Miss everyone! Hope you're all doing great!

- J

"No regrets."

Holy cow, can you believe it's been 10 month since it all started... John Ball and Jamie Swann, who would have thought. How great is it to know who you're gonna marry?! Baby I love you!

Hope all is well with everyone. Everything is great here! I miss everyone! Keep doing well in college!!

-J

"No regrets."

So it's been like two weeks or something since  I last updated, and I have a lot on my mind so here we go...

You know when you lose touch with someone and it feels like they are light worlds away yet you know exactly what is going on in their life? That's kinda how I feel right now. I haven't talked to anyone from Lake Mary in a really long time but I seem to know everything that goes on in their lives. I wonder if they feel the same about me?

And back to the whole losing touch. You never want to lose touch with someone, it just happens. Whether it's change or a fight, or just something random happens and you never talk to them again... For some reason though, when you do lose touch you look for ways to get in touch with them again. It's funny how that happens. My roommate Laura brought up this awsome point the other day... you see the same person everyday for almost your entire life and you realize that they yare there yet you never talk to them, you just notice them, but would you notice if they were gone? For all of you that live in Lake Mary, you know the guy that rides his bike EVERYWHERE and he's always in a suit and tie? You always notice he's there right? But would you REALLY notice if he were gone?

It's funny how it works out, people can get murdered and no one would notice until something odd happens... like a months worth of newspapers at their door. My neighbors always bring in our newspapers when we are out of town, but they never know we are out of town until we come back and they ask where we went. So if we were to all die, they'd bring in our newspapers, but would they realize that my enitre family was dead?

OK, so maybe this whole thing is a little weird, and maybe you don't understand it, but I do and that's all that matters.

Life is a beautiful thing, don't waste it on trivial matters and don't waste it on things that you will never know are true.

I love you all and I hope everyone is being safe!

- J

"No regrets."

P.S. To all of those whom I have lost touch with, you're still in my heart and you're still in my mind! Please take care of yourself, and by the way if you're reading this, love the new tattoo, I just got one too!

Can we say way too long? Haha! Sorry about that! Anyway, all is well in Florida. My two beach houses got pretty messed up from the two hurricanes but thank goodness it's winter so we won't be using them much. I'm up in Jacksonville for college. I seriously love it up here. I can do whatever I want when I want! It's so cool. Don't worry, I'm still taking class and everything seroiusly, can't go out too much otherwise I'll screw up bad! Anyway, I went up to Missouri to see my boyfriend, I love him so much and I can't wait until I spend the rest of my life with him. He's so amazing. I'm so glad I finally found someone to treat me right. I think that's all I have to say for now. I'll try and update more often. Peace out my crazy crackers!

-J

"No regrets."